Finally I’m back to PJ today. I was at Medan Indonesia for the past 5 days.
This post is going to be like a self-help blog.
My pre-wedding shoot will be on next week and I am looking forward to it. As I browsing through the website for tips to have pleasant photo shooting I decided to go to my long abandoned blog here. I used to have free time and passion to update my blog. Not for money making of course. It’s more like a journal for me to look back after so many years later. At least I could see and reviewed what I have done so far and what I have been through all my life.
I started to blog when I was in college 1st year back in 2004 as I have access to internet way easier compared to my high school days. To think back I have rough years until I completed my university days in 2006. Most of the time I was alone and don’t really socialize much unless I’m going to class. After that I’m back to a lonely girl who spent most of my time reading and sleeping my dorm room. Perhaps I’m not a fan wasting time gossiping and spending money I don’t have by hanging out with certain group of people gave me hard time to blend in the group. Different taste, different background and different languages. I have to admit I can’t clicked with too Chinese-Educated people. Sorry to say, not being a snob, I tried, seriously! It’s just don’t jive. Simple thing like dressing style and way of thinking already put me in a very difficult situation to blend in.
I did involved in relationships back then. 2 crappy men I’m in love so much I would say and I think they don’t deserve a spot here to talk about them! They took my 6 best years and I really regretted to be loyal to these assholes for 3 years each! I wish I could be prettier and slimmer, things can be different where these boys would just do anything for me and shower me with gifts or treat me like a princess. These useless thought stopped when I decided not to let anyone to determine my life. Enough said. If I want that shoes, I will work hard and buy it myself. If I want that house, I will find my way to make my moolah and buy it with my own effort. At least I am accountable to my life and no one else can take that away from me. I’m glad I met my husband who cares for me and accept for who I am. Yes, including my 78kg body and plain look with flat nose.
When comes to personal achievements, there is nothing to shout about. Never was an athlete or genius math whiz or something in school, I do have low self-esteem back then and often have wishful thoughts like, if only I could have a rich family that could send me to overseas and never come back. I wish I could just live luxury life without worries and have the best times of my life! There are times I wish I could have tons of money and just go shopping without worrying about my bank account. It getting worse when I went to university followed by celebrating my 32nd birthday with no birthday blast party or something. I’m pretty upset about it as this is not what I wanted to be like at all. I guess, truth hurts and reality hit me hard! After reviewing and find out the reasons why the heck am I sulking here, I decided to put this useless thought at rest and write down my goals and plans. To make it more exciting, I will post it in my blog soon and let the public knows so that I have no excuses to avoid it because everyone is watching me. Of course, I do not wish people watching and waiting me to fail.
Reading more inspiring blogs about real people does gave me more insights on how to take control of my life. Yes! There are still hopes. These are few start up thoughts and plans I have in mind to move forward:
- I have to accept the fact that my father is not Robert Kuok la! I know. I’m just a plain girl born in a middle-class family. That doesn’t mean I will die as one plain girl too. Unless I don’t do anything about it by just let the time goes by and eat my youth away. I decided how much I must earn each month to sustain comfortably and how can I do it to achieve that. Of course, I put a deadline there, by age 35! Oh yes, tick-tock, time is ticking 3 years to go mate!
- List down 10 long term goals, 10 medium term goals and 10 short term goals with deadlines. Sounds crazy and this is not what I usually do. You know what, I’ve been wasting away 32 years of my life, time to take control and get it back!\
- Prepare a bucket list and do all these crazy things before I die. Oh yes! One of them is to compete in marathon and get a bloody medal. I shall post the list and going to execute these and blog about it.
If you still reading up to this paragraph, I really appreciate it! Normally people just gonna click “X” once they read the 1st paragraph. Thank you dear reader, I need support from you. Once I’m done with the 3 things I’ve mentioned just now I shall post it for more updates.
I’m well known to my strict way of leadership. Effective leadership it is. I can’t tolerate with nonsense and excuses. All I care about it KPI! Achievements. My way to motivate is : ” I don’t care how you do, provided within the legal boundaries, get it done!” Sounds like dictatorship for certain people. I would say these people just can’t keep up with me or they just don’t like me at all. Efficient! Get things done! Bla Bla Bla!
I am not usually like this. It all started with a history. A bad one I would say. Back in the university days, I was being pushed away for being inefficient. It was a brutal. To the extend I refused to be in a group for ALL assignments, including dissertation which is compulsory to be submitted in groups.
There’s one particular tutor has to stand up for me and to advice other classmates to take me in. Well, they just have to take me in anyway. It was a painful experience for me as I treated them as my friends. Obviously just because I’m a just not as good as they expected me to be, I became an outcast in seconds. It’s a tough lesson I learnt that I have to bulk up if I wanted to survive.
Another lesson learnt is it’s best to motivate other members who is dropping out instead of just throw them away without even trying. I don’t want to be treated that way and clearly I will not treat others that way too. Unless it’s a gone case for instance after several attempt to motivate them, these members refused to change for better.
I lead according to situation. If shit is getting out of hand, I turned to Hitler and get things right. I prefer to call it the CHAOS Management. If members or subordinates are doing the right things and responsible with their individual functional roles, I’m just focus on the directions and goals they need to achieve. The rest, leave it to them to do it. Like I said, I don’t care how they do it, just get things done and achieve the KPI.
Micromanagement is tiring for me. However if my team need a push to get this forward, I stepped in. Temporarily and they need to bulk and move on their own fast too! After all, this is their responsibility to complete their tasks according to each functional roles that being assigned to them. I’m more like a incubator instead of spoon-feeder (if there’s such term). I’m there to support but not for too long.
Maybe one day when I have children of my own, that would be a challenge for me to lead and nurture these rascals! Children naturally are cheeky and restless at times. I hope I could pull this off without taking valium to calm me down! Hahah!
I admit life can be a bitch at times. There are ups and downs in life that shaped our life to become who we are today. Nevertheless, to be that someone I wanted to be it’s also a matter of choice. Life is full with choices but it could disastrous if we made the wrong choices. Clearly I can’t turn back the time and fix it. Instead I have to move forward and let the past stayed where it belong, i.e. Past.
Oh well, what am I babbling about now. I’m supposed to finish my final report for my assignment on ILLY, the most famous provider of premium coffee in the world that also the world’s 2nd most valuable commodity.
Alright. Back to the assignment and shall update more next time!
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
4,329 films were submitted to the 2012 Cannes Film Festival. This blog had 33,000 views in 2012. If each view were a film, this blog would power 8 Film Festivals
Who have thought that you can now try to play Angry Birds on TV with your bare hands? It’s the new Samsung SMART TV that is now available for all ages to experience the games. With the features using the camera from the SMART TV, it can detect the your hand and to respond from the movement of your hand while playing the game.
For instance, once the sensor detected your hand movement in front of the new Samsung SMART TV and turn your hand into a fist, it will response as if you click a mouse to choose a feature on the screen. It sounds quite confusing here for some. With the Motion Control Feature, Samsung has achieved to be the market leader when comes to the audio-visual feature. Now everyone can enjoy this as a family activities and to get hands on the game with the Motion Control from the Smart TV. Who need karaoke for family gathering if SMART TV could cater all generations via Angry Birds! Aren’t they cute when they are super angry?
At first I was not really get the hang of it as I’m so used to the touch screen feature on my Samsung Tab. Trust me, it won’t take that long to get used with the Motion Control sensor to play this awesome game. I’m sure most Angry Birds fans would love to get their hands-on experience with Samsung Smart TV. It’s a smart move for Samsung to use Angry Birds as the first game app using Smart TV as it’s one of the most downloaded game application on smartphones.
With the Smart TV feature, it can be a central use for all social networking, informative platform and entertainment for families. All you need is a internet connection and you can use this as good as a computer completed with games for both children and adults. Sound system and the graphics are in both surround and HD quality. It’s really gives users the experience that would give fun yet hands-on feel on the game. What can I say? Meet the world’s FIRST smart TV and the world’s most successful game on smartphones.
I shall end this with a short footage I took from my Samsung Tab 10.1
From being a college student till stepped into the working world, facing computer on daily basis has been part of my life. It’s quite normal for me to spend at least 2 hours in front of computer screen for work or even since student life back in Kuala Lumpur. Most working adults could easily spend at least 5 hours and above sitting down and straining their neck doing their work in front of the desktop. Trust me, there are some points in my life I felt a huge stone pressing my neck and shoulders. The last thing in my mind is a great reliever to ease the pain and strain while rushing to finish my work.
Long hours and hectic schedule among working adults like myself didn’t realize the long term effect of straining the neck and shoulders without taking precautions to ease the tension on these muscles. Without realizing it will become a common discomfort found in most professionals in this city. Chasing the achievements and goals while own health is at risk. What’s the point being successful if constantly having body discomfort along the way.
Getting a massage for instant relief is always my 1st choice. But thanks to my hectic schedule, it’s a challenge to find the most suitable time for me to get one. Not until I was introduced to use Tiger Balm Neck & Shoulder Rub from a friend. Honestly?! Tiger Balm? I never thought of it at all till I started to use it 3 days ago. No more small glass bottle and will stuck in my long nails if you think I’m using the old packing for Tiger Balm, if you know what I mean.
Tiger Balm Neck & Shoulder Rub comes in 2 different types and a newly packaged with a modern and sleek design that you might think it’s a moisturizer for the face. The 2 variants are the Tiger Balm Neck & Shoulder Rub with soothing lavender fragrance for a mild neck & shoulder aches while Tiger Balm Neck & Shoulder Boost has extra strength with lasting relief for over-stressed, tired and stiff neck & shoulders muscles. The scent is refreshing that provides invigorating feeling on the skin after application.
It’s easy and convenient to use as it’s easily fit into my small bag whenever I need it a quick fix to my strained neck. It’s light and non-greasy. It will take around 3-5 minutes to feel the cooling feeling on my skin after applying it. The smell is acceptable as it doesn’t produce strong pungent smell. The fast absorption on the skin is a perfect for me for a Massage-on-the-Go that only needs minutes of my hectic schedule for a quick fix.
I’m glad Tiger Balm, the world renowned and trusted brand came up with innovation quality for relief aches plus a touch of reinvention in the new packaging. This brand may be a century old with a modern innovation and still continues providing high quality product in the market that has a special formulation to reduce tension around the neck & shoulder areas.